Reminiscing...

So I am sitting in bed listening to my husband snore (haha) and I am reminiscing about Brenley's birth day. I know it was only 3 months ago, but man, sometimes it feels it feels like it was 3 years ago. It started earlier this evening when I was watching some videos on Bobby's phone that he took the day she was born. After 3 months, I still had not really watched them. I vaguely remember Bobby showing me a few in the hospital, the day I had her, but I think I feel alseep while he was showing them to me. :) So anyway, I started watching them tonight -- one of her first bath in the nursery, one of her heel being pricked, one of her just being checked out.  It was so amazing to watch and try to think back to that day. I am kind of sad because I don't really remember a lot from that day, or the few that followed. Having a c-section rocked my world and I am sad to say that I don't even remember even holding Brenley for the first time. It was just a crazy time. Anyway, I just love to sit and think back to that day, going into labor, the hospial, the first few weeks at home. I find myself thinking about it all alot because I don't want to lose those memories. I have a knot in my throat now, just thinking about it all!

Brenley has changed our lives and sometimes I can't fathom how much I love her. Now I would be lying if I said it was easy or fun all the time, but I would not trade her for anything.  I look at her sometimes and cannot believe that she is a part of me and Bobby. Oh I wish she would stay small forever!

Here are just a few things I love about being a mommy...

• that I get greeted with a smile in the mornings! (This can make any "non-morning" persons day!)
• that sometimes when she is crying she just wants ME to hold her
• that she recognizes my voice and will turn her head to me when she hears it
• that she will grin from ear to ear just from hearing me say "HIIII"
• being able to kiss her cheeks any time I want to
• getting to tell people her name and/or age when they ask (dumb, I know, but it reminds me that she is MINE)
• hearing this from my husband (and partner in this parenting-thing) right before he fell asleep tonight-- "Thanks for being the best mommy to Brenley, I appreciate it and so does she!"

Well that is all, a little random, but just speaking from the heart. :-)

P.S. and to all my Mommy-to-be friends out there---enjoy the rest of your pregnancy, write your thoughts and memories down. Try to soak up everything in the hospital and the weeks that follow, even though you will be so tired, AND reminisce often. :)